tired..

 im busy settle-ing my car loan..aish,eventhough it's under my parents name,im the one who incharge to call my cuzzie,keep asking him the same question "any good news for me"..urrghh,and i still receive the same answer.. so many things need to repair now >.< 

 my phone always hang when i connect to internet.. haiizzz.. pls laaaaa... i havent start working yet.. wait till i work bru u all rosak ba.. i got no money nw to repair all the things >.<

i spend a lot of my money just to shopp for preparation because if i receive the appointment letter,i'll start working,so i got no time to buy things for myself lg..

 

im a sexy jobless from 30th september.. until now,28th oct >.< 

just another 4 days to complete my 1 month as a jobless.. matai~.~

i told my dad i want to work part time at kk,he doesnt want.. so annoying la.. im damn bored here.. everyday doing the same activities.. even go out at night mom will scolded me because she dont want i drve d max.. not harap.. tiaoo lerhh... what for my license if i didnt use it oh..sottt @.@

so pressure when i stay here.. i dont knw what should i do..always at shop.. n during night time will stay at home.. bullshit!!!! i really need to go out.. how can i tell them ... aiyaaa... need to wake up early every morning.. seriously,i cant take it anymore.. i really wanna have fun.. my dear alcohol,i really miss u =.='

once i get my car,first thing i will do,go find my beer!! aiyyaaaa,seriously.. cannot tahan oredy..i dont care if ppl mark me as alcoholic.. but i drink just to have fun.. to forget all my problems.. not to show off la u ppl.. i heard many bad stories abt me..whatever la k.. i dont eeven care.. as long i didnt use their money to eat..

i really want to go out.. pls la >.< i dont know what should i do here =.=

birthday princess~

finally,the day has come..thanks to God,family n friends :)
thanks for all the wishes.. during midnight my phone keep ringing,for those who called me and wished me thank u so much peeps:)
i blew two cakes this year..:)

the cupcakes kan tu org salah spell my name.. spoiled ni.. tp so far ok la taste dia:)
d bwah ni kna potong sda bru snap:p
puas hati jga this yr pnya celebration :)

last night we dinner at rons grill,ok la..just 4 of us.. ksian my sis.. tia dpt celebrate with us :(

fried chicken chop for my dinner,heavy dinner la last night.. i should excercise to burn all my calories..

my 18 yrs old face :)
haha..lazy mau crop..that shirt makes me look fat..or im the one who really getting fat? aiya..hopefully no:(
will update more soon^^
happy monday peeps!

good day for me?

i woke up early this morning =)
sounds good.. hopefully a good day for me =)
im going to kk today.. i dont care! :D
i want to spend my last 17 day with shopping! :)

gumuk ka? wakakaka!

come on baby,today is 7th oct,1 more day baby,n i'll be 18.. i cant wait to be 18,seriously..i want to be free from 17 life..  thats all! tatatata XD

3 days more~~

i woke up late this morning around 9 am~
i thought today gonna be fun,but when my mom fetch me up at home just nw,she told me to cancel my plan with ann ann damian tomorrow n stay at kp follow them to kk this weekend to see dentist n BULLSHIT! 
why ppl keep hurting my feeling when im planning to have great moment during before n after my birthday? shit ok! what for i go to the dentist when my teeth still painful?
being 18 even im working isnt fun at all! i really need my own freedom.. astga.. *melalut pagi2*


seriously,im not in a good mood today,i feel wanna slap sumone's face! shittttt...
hmm =.=

lonely n silent night~

i feel bored since morning until now! eerrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhh..1st oct,i thought i'll have more fun tapi awal2 sda T.T


aisssh~ seriously kan nnt bila sda start keja,byk la tu sms dtg..mana lg ada free time mau jwb.. time tula kmu rasa bosan+sunyi mcm aku rasa skg =.='


8 days to go till my 18th bday..  harap2 positive la that day~  seriously,xda mood =.='
sms pn stop awal:D
maaf la yr wahai kwan2 tersyg sekalian,i xda mood tgk fon =.=
sorry yerrr... gg sakit..malar sakit.. matai =.='

Kirk Franklin- I Smile Lyrics

I dedicate this song to recession,
depression and unemployment.
This song’s for you.

Today’s a new day, but there is no sunshine.
Nothing but clouds, and it’s dark in my heart
and it feels like a cold night.
Today’s a new day, but where are my blue skies.
Where is the love and the joy that you promised me
tell me it’s alright.

(I’ll be honest with you)

I almost gave up, but a power that I can’t explain,
fell from heaven like a shower now.

(When I think how much better I’m gonna be when this is over)

[ Lyrics from http://www.songonlyrics.com/kirk-franklin-i-smile-lyrics ]

I smile, even though I hurt see I smile,
I know God is working so I smile,
Even though I’ve been here for a while
I smile, smile..
It’s so hard to look up when you look down.
Sure would hate to see you give up now.
You look so much better when you smile, so smile.

Today’s a new day, but there is no sunshine.
Nothing but clouds, and it’s dark in my heart
and it feels like a cold night.
Today’s a new day, but tell me where are my blue skies,
where is the love and the joy that you promised me
tell me it’s – alright.

(the truth is)
I almost gave up, but a power that I can’t explain
fell from heaven like a shower now.

I smile, even though I’m hurt see I smile,
I know God is working so I smile,
Even though I’ve been here for a while
I smile, smile.
It’s so hard to look up when you look down.
Sure would hate to see you give up now
You look so much better when you smile.

Smile.. for me
Can you just smile… for me.
Smile.. for me
Can you just smile… for me.

ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
(and while your waiting)
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
(and while your praying)
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
(look in the mirror)
ohohoh, you look so much better when you smile

I almost gave up, but a power that I can’t explain
fell from heaven like a shower now – right now.

I smile, even though I’m hurt see I smile,
I know God is working so I smile,
Even though I’ve been here for a while
I smile, smile..
it’s so hard to look up when you look down.
Sure would hate to see you give up now.
You look so much better when you smile.
so smile.

ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
ohohoh, you look so much better when you
smile…

I just want you to be happy..
I want you to have joy ’cause can’t nobody
take that away from you.
I see you.. SMILE!!

~You've got to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you've got, and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never regret.~

this morning i thought my day could be the worst day ever!
i came late to school,teachrs treat me bad and so whatever!
i feel want to go home that time..if i didnt go to school today i wont get any trouble,ppl wont hurt my feelings.. tp behind the sad story,God sent me a good news..
th interview i attend last week,finally i got the job <3
thanks God,thanks to my family,thanks to my dear,thanks to all my friends for the supports <3


my baby boo gave me a present for my birthday.. too early ba kn? btw,thanks so much baby boo~ u r the first person gave me present for my 18th bday :)
i received two presents today,the most unforgetable moments~ when i was told that i got the job.. thank u so much god~ i know u dont want to see me in pain everyday~

nice kn? pink lg tuuuuu~  im so happy~ tenkiu so much!


tomorrow im going to do medical check up at sipitang~ hopefully everythings ok..if everythings ok,i can start work with joy~~ 


mumy dady i'll promise u i wont do bad things anymore,i'll try to be positive and matured.. i know im stubborn but im trying to change it..ily mumy dady <3

smurfy :D

mel is completely insane~ 5 days alrd i didnt go to school..
:D 
i dont care what teachers gonna said..i'll close my ears! :D
mumy also dont care if i didnt go to school~ dady sja bising.. whatever~ :D


today is tamu day,cbuk ah~ last night hujannnnnn kuat~ smpi dgr ada rumah org pnya atap trbang g.. fuhh..magic.. atap pn ble terbang :p


tomorrow im going to school..hopefully no bad things happen~ i want to be happy at school for 3 days~ 
3 days only then i'll leave school with a big hopes~


i keep playing the smurfs.. pnya syok..cute lg that.. nnt mau p tgk wyg dia la~ :D

tiiiuuuut kn :)

101 ways to show u love somebody~ :)

1. Tell the other person that you love them
2. Give or get a hug
3. Make sure the other person feels important and respected
4. Kiss when people are looking
5. Kiss when people aren't looking
6. Tell the other person that you care
7. Hold hands
8. Go for a long bike ride
9. Give a special present
10. Be there when they need a friend
11. Spend time together
12. Go to see a film
13. Walk arm in arm in the woods
14. Make a special tape of love songs
15. Talk about your feelings
16. Share dreams with each other
17. Snuggle up together
18. Sit together in the park
19. Take a walk together
20. Go out for a meal
21. Have a picnic
22. Play a game of frisbee
23. Give compliments
24. Relax in a jacuzzi
25. Go swimming
26. Just be close
27. Go shopping for food
28. Cook a meal together
29. Touch each other in a loving way
30. Do homework together
31. Plan and go on a trip together
32. Throw a party together
33. Bake a cake
34. Go to the library
35. Browse in a museum
36. Just be there
37. Find out what's special for the other person - and do it
38. Exercise together
39. Gaze at each other
40. Wash each other's cars (or bikes !)
41. Go fishing
42. Talk to each other
43. Listen to worries
44. Cut each other's toenails
45. Choose a special favourite song
46. Listen to joys
47. Hold one another close
48. Catch their eye
49. Write one another letters
50. Talk on the telephone
51. Trust one another
52. Give or receive a ring
53. Meet each other's family
54. Go hiking together
55. Make sacrifices for each other
56. Send chocolates
57. Respect each other
58. Go for a moonlight walk
59. Hide a love note where the other will find it
60. Give each other sexy looks
61. Write a poem
62. Send flowers
63. Eat dinner by candlelight
64. Go to a concert
65. Watch the sunrise together
66. Remember anniversaries
67. Give each other pet names
68. Go sightseeing
69. Rent a video
70. Do things for each other without being asked
71. Propose marriage
72. Whisper something nice into the other's ear
73. Be best friends
74. Have fun together
75. Go out dancing
76. Play music together
77. Flirt with each other
78. Laugh at something funny together
79. Be faithful
80. Impress each other
81. Make a list of things you like about each other
82. Read a book and discuss it
83. Meet each other's friends
84. Go horse riding
85. Cook each other's favourite food
86. Find out what makes each other happy
87. Make presents for each other
88. Wash each other's hair
89. Watch the sunset
90. Go for a bus trip
91. Have a request played on the radio
92. Send a funny card
93. Share your plans for the future
94. Play footsie
95. Share private jokes
96. Think about each other
97. Find out what makes the other sad
98. Go skating
99. Swap rings
100. Share an ice-cream
101. Have your picture taken together

princess mel should start counting days:)

my birthday is just around the corner..

i cant wait to be 18 :)

i hope it will b the most best memories ever :)

i dont wish any presents but i wish ppl around me will make me happy.. happier than usual:)

i still remember my 16th bday when mom gave me a surprised bday party ;)

i still cant forget the moment until nw :)

i wish ths year will be more surprising =)

im planning to have ths birthday cake for my 18th bday..but,its only a dream mel;)

im no longer continue my school..after pmr i am officially a sexy jobless~ haha:D

i missed a lot of chapter..especially economy subject..so i've made up my own decision.*quit school*

luckily my beloved parents understand my conditions and agree with my decision..im big enough to decide for myself:)

i hope god will always show me the right way to go..and will always bless me~ 

i spent 4 months in that school.. honestly,im hepi..superb hepi because i met new friends..

eventhough there's a lot of  crisis happened in 4 months but all memories will always in stay my heart~

to all my beloved friends in smkpkp especially for lower six,all the best for stp.. good luck~ for all the guys yg hensem2 belaka tu,studyyyyy~ jangan mengurat sja :D

for my senior..good luck ..all the best for stp..:)

i dnt knw what should i write..

*will continue blogging later *

god bless! :)

im counting the days..

9th oct! cant waiiitttttt..

i'll be 18 n will say goodbye to my 17 world~

just nw the jpsm called me,blang terplih la apa.. ari tu blang tda mau bg..apala dorg ni!

toothache~ pling sandi pnya skit..dr dlu smpi skg xpndai baik2 T.T

ari tu pg doc andrea,full gila..rupa2nya im not the only one yg kesakitan gg~ =.='

yesterday we went to kk~ i didnt shop a lot oh.. mcm tia sgka ni..

maybe effect rindu yg melampau dgn hubby i~ =.='

i miss him so mucccchhh..

cant wait to see him!

hihihihihi,noty ba dia pndai2 g snap pic bkn2 gna fon i.. i had a great moment la that time~~

this thursday i got another intrview.. klu dpt ni comfirm byebyee dia~ =.='

but nvmnd..this is for my own future.. will do th best! pray for me*

cantikkk sda laptop gueee...next mau taru bling2 pink lg :)

jobless hbis ba c mel.. 

dorg adelene & sharon text me yesterday,sgsara kunun sna ah.. duiii,rindu aku sma diaorg :'(

3 months xlma tu! will wait for them <3

will update more later after thursday~ :)

p/s: c hubby tgah membaca tu! :D

gaduh!

mau d ingat ni suma.. i told him suma i update xsemestinya i ckp dia.. but,hm..
seriously damn la ba kn..mcm aku rasa mau deactvate ja fb,mau dlte blog ni.. tda mau skit hati,jan la bca ni suma ba kn.. tda persefahaman,buat apa sma2?

he dont need to waste his time n so do mine..
speechless,hopeless,loveless,everything.. i dont knw what should i do nw..i really need sumone to talk to..
i just need to be happy..
he asked me,cpl with me doesnt make u happy? gila apa.. org ktwa lbh byk ah sma dia.. gadu pn susa mau gadu.. buli2 dia ckp mcm tu.. sdala,nekad sda ni..apa mau jd,jd la;)

life must go on..
cheers for my old life!
i'm changing back to the old melissa~ mel;)
cheers!

i feel empty..

i wished u were here with me..
i'm lost.. i need someone to hold my hand and bring me back to my real life..
tda emo2 ah..
buli ka org ajar supaya tda serius klu cpl? byk btul ba i rasa skg..kecewa,suma 1 set i rasa..tulung la..i really need my besties..
hmm..single is better la ba kn.. 
i really need the single status.. i really do..skit kpala.. skit hati bila fkir ni suma..


ni la ni bila kita start serius trus kna kc main.. shit..terribly shit ba..
smpi bla kc biar kn..
mcm mna mau ckp sma dia? tda tau la..btul jua ni ckp org,"bila telmpau jaga hati c dia,hati ko sdri tda kna jaga" btul oh.. kecewa sa..

bad day~

mcm tda sa rasa ni..
sakit sja blk2.. bru tu suma pn mau aku bt..adaada.. dunia la..
mana than oo bgni..
nobody cares ah..
buli ka doraemon antar alat yg buli kc delete org2 jahat ah?
stress fkir ni hidup..
tda pndai abis2 ooh stress..menghitung hari mau berhenti school..tp makin lama makin lmbt pla ni masa berjln..
tulung la..

bad week ever!

first of all,lma da i xblogging~ :D busy with my life~

my 2 besties p plkn oredy tomorrow..they left me all alone here..

i can only counting the days till they back home..

will spend my time with them aft thy settled up their plkn~ 

i'll spend most of tym with nellyn aft ths..i like her..she always make me laugh with her jokes..

my mum agreed i berhenti school..*finally* :)

tp suddenly i brat hati..

but its okay ba kn :)

as long im hepi :)

today, *9-9-11* 

i kc pth my sim card..dg~

hepi btul ni smpi kc pth..this is all because of fernandez!!

thanks a lot dude!! 

im having the worst week!

*xthan uda*

:"(

hepi raya day!

raya day~ should i say raya holiday was totally bored?~=.='
i followed him go hangkai on 2nd day of raya..totally tired la kn~ but enjoyed!
we didnt text a lot.. busy kali dia~ i keep waiting for his text.. :D




i really wanna quit school ba.. i just dont knw how to explain to my dad. he's the main reason why i cant get my ass out frm that school:(
i hate school not because i hate my friends,but because i hate the teacher's attitude/ i hate when i was forced to follow their rules.
yes,i know im a bad person,but at least i don't disturb their life kn~
i enjoyed my life so much~ i make new friends,ignore bitches,i tried to be more patient with all the bitches , i gave them chances.. but they keep doing the same thing.. 
did anybody cares? they dont even care.. they just happy when they saw my tears on my cheek,when i give up..
i wonder when will God send me someone that really know how to take care of my feeling?


*everybody keep asking me the same question..
"mel,why u choose him?"
i dnt knw how to answer them lg.. i want to find a guy that can make happy always.. 
when im mad,he makes me laugh..
when im sad,he makes smile..
when im happy,he makes me happier<3
this is what we called love experience.. jd,dont ask me lg k!:)

*hopefully so*

17th-aug-'11 *bad day*

bad day for me~
i failed my economy paper..for sure.. tda bt revision kn...
then cgu ckp2 my rlationship dgn dia..
then dia mcm mlas mau lyn..
suma bad today...!.
mls sda stay cni. btul2 mlas.. tda papa sda yg buli bkin hepi sni..day by day ada sja kc skit ati..
i wish i can get out frm here..as soon as possible..i cant stand it anymore...
people cant stop talking bad abt me..
shit!!

http://youtu.be/JWA5hJl4Dv0

12-14/08/11

went to kl with my family + aunty linda,dudu n maymay~
kindda' enjoy but tired..
mega sales are happening nw in every city..*raya kn*
i spend too many $$ there..huhu..
saturday morning,i went to bfast with mum,dad n may2..aft finished bfast they went to casino..and i have to follow them..many ppl look at me but i dnt even care.. haha... i told mum i wanna play the jackpot one,uncle benny ka apa ka that..forgot oredy the name.. mum suru me g tkar money,but im scared..stupid oh:|
n today.. back to school... huhu..nightmare oh..i dnt even like that school..i wish i can get my ass out frm that school ASAP:|

weird day

today paper eko I
sgt bgus ok.
sgt bgus bla i xterjwb!
hmm,tomorrow will stay at kk.
kmi pnya flight 7 something oo friday..
pagi babe! i wonder sepa ble kc bgun:P
will miss my babe badly..

*10-08-11*

i'm counting the days! kl....wait for me baby;)
yesterday im chilling with my boo..
kindda had a great time..laughing a lot..
today i hve 2 papers~~ eko + bm..wish me luck..i didnt do my revision yet..
kiki:p
next month my two besties will leave me alone here..all alone by myself..
they will attend the plkn..urrrggh,hate this feeling..
will miss them so much...T.T

dia yg snap <3<3 

;)

FRUST

i cant stand it anymore..buli ka kc biar sa aman?kcwa..mostly bnda yg kluar dr mulut ko bkin kecewa ni..

especially psl ex ko.. BENCI!! tia pyh ma kc jeles2 psl ex ko ja pn.. trus trg mmg i npk sda ko lg rapat dgn ex ko drpd gf ko sdri..so utk apa mau cr pgganti ex ko? ko blk ba sma dia..ska kn kc men prasaan aku..ok..

*08*08*11

i didnt sleep last nite..i cant stop thinking abt our relationship..am im the one who can make him happy? idk. 
we got test today.. bm 1 n p.am 1 & 2..
sucks oo!! i fall asleep duringpaper  bm n p.am1~~im sorry teacher..i cant even concentrate...=(

dad,i really wanna quit school..i cant take it anymore...